The following is a poem by a good friend of mine. A strong woman by the name of Tracy Smalls. She is someone that is so exuberant and walks her truth on a daily basis. I loved reading her book and the message that she tried to convey to anyone who would listen. Her poetry is her story and her life. I hope you enjoy it and if you are interested she also has a book entitiled “You’re Not Alone” a collection of poems. Her website is http://www.TracyNSmalls.com
I don’t know where to start, but
I do know I want to change.
I’ve been living this life for
All so long, Mamma, yeah!
She was there for me, but it came to a
Point in my life when I had to
Fly and find out what life is really about.
I had some ups and downs.
At age 12, I had to do only what I knew to do.
As a child, Mamma put me out.
Yeah I would not live up to her rules and
So she did what she did and I went astray.
Daddy, who’s that? And what
Does that mean to a young black man who
Only knew the streets and what they had to offer?
Daddy, yeah! I got one,
Because along with my Mamma and God’s
I was born, a young black man who
Was left out in the cold to defend himself.
Daddy, who’s that? Someone I never knew.
I really don’t even know his whole name.
Not once have I even laid eyes on this man who is
Supposed to be my father. No one to teach me
What it means to be a young black man in this
World. No one to set the stage for me and show
Me how to be the head,
The man I really desire to be.
But I still try to maintain. Get money was all I knew.
As a young boy just trying to make it at the age of 12.
Disappointment, heartaches, pain is all
I have gotten these 14 years being in the game.
Even evidence to remind me of the struggling I have been going through.
I’ve been getting weary and frustrated.
Do you hear me Dear God?
I need you. I want a new me, a new being,
For I have been doing this for all too long.
I’m just a young black man trying to maintain and
So Dear Lord, while I continue to KNOCK,
Please answer my knock and release your
Power into my life so I may be all that you
Have called me to be, which is so much more
Than I am now.
I am a KING, I am a WARRIOR, so
Dear Lord, Hear my knock,
Help me to not give up. I need you in my life.
FAITH, I don’t know if I have it anymore.
Belief that things will change or get any better,
For surely you will open the door for me…..